There is a series of drawings I should have bookmarked, illustrating grief. One shows two people walking side by side, each holding a handle of a basket marked ‘memories’. The grief version of this image is one person, holding just one handle. Memories are something else when shared, repainted, renewed. Something is forever lost in memories unshared.
And then there is the business of separations, and memories that are denied, memories longed for, memories stirred, and not the same from both sides. This poem began in light of my lost family: chosen and deliberate breaking of memories. And I have seen shared belongings in an unshared space, and wondered about the ways in which I am forgotten.
This poem is a poignant and very real portrayal of losing my family to my personal changes with which they could not cope or embrace. But then I thought about it after writing, and realise that it also applies to my mother’s slow loss of memory (even that I am her daughter), whilst well-remembered things could be found in her house. Things shared, that no longer are; things that could be shared memories, but are not.
The basket of my memories
has a broken handle, many spilled—
hanging in order on your walls
not wells, and dry in the sun
between showers.
who don’t remember, deliberately—
one doesn’t deliberately remember
the other deliberately doesn’t.
with no handles
a pool without reflection.
on your shelf, on your wall.
The recycling basket lies by the door.
2017 © Andie Davidson
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